Thursday, March 15, 2018

the lessons GOD teaches

 In the past few years I've gone through seasons where God has encouraged me and given me reminders.

One year it was   L O V E;
another it was   T R U S T;
this past year was   C O U R A G E / B R A V E.

  And how do I know it was Him? The words would come up too many time to be coincidental. Sermons would be taught on the subject, gifts would be given with the words, or experiences where all I could do was let go and listen to Him. And these are hard words to learn from.

I had to experience loss to know what it meant to fully love;
I had to experience uncertainty to know I had to trust; 
I had to be scared to know I should be brave. 

  It doesn't sound fun, and it wasn't for some (even most) of that time. But it didn't happen all at once, and was given to me in amounts that I wouldn't crumble underneath.

  You know the passage where Paul talks about how God will not give us more than we can handle? I've heard a lot of controversy about this verse, and it has been taken out of context a lot. I liked it when someone explained it as "When God gives you more than you can handle, it's so you can be strengthened by Him." He won't give you so much that you fail; God gives you just enough so that you have to depend on Him. He wants to be the source of your strength. You will experience things that you will think you will never make it through, but God is there. A solid rock for you to have firm footing.

"The temptations in your life are no different 
from what others experience. And God is faithful. 
He will not allow temptation to be more
 than you can stand. When you are tempted, 
he will show you a way out so that you can endure."
 ~1 Cor 10:13, NLT translation

  Even though I've often felt alone, I have never been. Despite the struggles of everyday life He has been right there, guiding me. And that is one of the most reassuring things I think anyone can experience. The knowledge that the God of the universe, the Creator of life, cares about you, and is wanting to lead you. 

What is something God has taught you?

Monday, March 12, 2018

Well...that happened.

  You know when you stop something, and it just seems easier to just not start up again? Then the time keeps adding up and then it's been forever? I've been dealing with that a lot, blogging especially. My posts have never been consistent (but generally 1-3 posts a month), and they can range from a small, short rant to a long overview of what has been going on in life. This is the place where I can share things about me, where I can speak my thoughts, and that helps me. Writing down things is therapeutic, but I've just fallen away from it.

but i've missed it.

  It's difficult to explain, and I'm sitting here laughing a bit as I write this. If it's something I enjoy, why is it so hard for me to start hitting letters on the keyboard, or to click 'Publish'?

  Though I am thankful that I've been able to have a rest from it, where I haven't felt burdened or obligated to post twice a week, or keep up with other's blog posts. Only now, as I am enjoying my last day of spring break, do I feel okay to try and take up the challenge again. I'm not promising much, but I have things to say: how good the Lord has been, my time at college, struggles, exploring life, and experiencing new things.

  So this post is just a greeting, after my long break from the blogging world, and to say that there will be more posts in the near future.
And to those who stick around, thanks. :)

Monday, September 11, 2017


Image result for 9/11 pinterest*

Sixteen years ago the 9/11 attack has happened. 

  I was too young to know what was going on, or even remember it. But I do know the devastation and pain 9/11 left America with.
 This past summer I was able to go and visit the 9/11 Memorial and Museum. To say I was speechless is an understatement. To know of the heartbreak, death, and dashed hope. To hear the calls of those in the second tower phoning home to say they were safe, and myself knowing that it was only a matter of time before they too would be fearing for their lives. To read the notes of people trapped on floors that they threw down, and the responses of the men and women who tried to rescue them. Of walking beside the Survivor's Stairs, and seeing the destruction of what seemed massive, strong, and indestructible now bent and broken...Seeing the faces of all the victims-their names, their flights, departments. Hearing how passengers fought back, and memories of loved ones they left behind. It was a surreal experience.

the gaping black hole
all that's left of tortured souls
as the water endlessly pours down
like in the tears that loved ones have drowned
a moment of silence 
for on this day
our country was never the same

*pic from LoveThisPic

Monday, August 28, 2017

It Has Begun

  In the whirlwind of today, I'm just taking a moment to say "College began today." It is such a strange thought to think I am now a college student. Even stranger that I am considered an adult. Time passes so quickly, and the preparation for this semester has come and gone. I have already completed my first class of the day (with nothing going wrong), and will soon be headed to my next class.
  I love my campus- how all the buildings are unique and have a history to them. I especially love the library, which has five stories <3
I've met some great people, some who I hope to better acquaint myself with, and enjoyed my morning bike ride ( living close to campus has its perks :)  ).
Though this is only a short, chaotic greeting from the school, I want to say thank you for those who supported and encouraged me as I got ready for college life- especially my mom and dad (whose 20 anniversary is today!!!) Would not be here without you all.

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Wrap Up


   Where to start. I guess I'll begin by saying, "I'M DONE WITH SCHOOL!" *dances around* I graduated from school and now have the whole summer to conquer the world. XD  I'll be attending college in the fall, so there's also that. (It's such a cute campus. I really love it and am so excited and nervous about it.) This month went pretty well actually. We had my graduation ceremony, and then the party a week or so afterward. My grandparents were all able to come and visit for a week, so that was really cool to see them again, and to have them see my graduation. I even was able to go to prom, so that was a lot of fun.

   Also, I got a new phone! There's a long and complicated story about my previous phone (which was only like 14 months old) but the short version is that it no longer would be able to serve me. I ended up switching phones, and now am the owner of an Apple. So yeah, it's been nice figuring out all the cool stuff on it. (rose-gold is such a pretty color) I feel like I have a complicated life because everything seems to have a long explanation lol.

   On a travel related note; I was suppose to go on my graduation trip in July, but it ended up getting canceled. Though I'm bummed I won't be able to go on that particular trip, I am super excited for Plan B. My grandmother and I are going to be going on my new trip this upcoming weekend (so soon!), and I can't wait. (If you follow me on my social media -Instagram/Facebook- you'll see where and what it is before I actually post about it on here) It was really last minute, but am so glad it worked out, and that God has provided for the trip. There were a lot of things that could have not made it enjoyable, or possible.


I ate a candy bar before going to bed, and it was delicious. Whatchamacallit is now my favorite. <3

I am saying words incorrectly more often-so I got to play it off cool (yay)

Guy from my youth group calling me and not realize he was talking to me until 10 minutes later. Very awkward conversation

The moment when my heart stopped while in the library. I looked over to see someone standing in front of a bookshelf with no head. I was so freaked out for the half-second it took me to realize that they had their head was turned sideways. (I tried to get a pic, but she moved and I was trying not to appear stalkerish)

Sending a letter to a friend in Europe, and her getting it. (was so nervous it wouldn't go to the right address since we don't speak the same language XD)

Friend: "I think the icing on the cake is melting."
Me: "Nah. That's just the water affect of the ocean."

Savvy: *gasp* "My foggied window!" *silence* *crickets chirp* ..."I mean. My window fogged."

Savvy: (talking about mom) "How long has she had this cough?"
Biz: "A couple days. A Lot of couple days."

(So this is like a "thing" Savvy asks every so often now. Biz's responses get cuter each time)
Savvy: "Why are you so cute?"
Biz: "Because God made me that way because he wants me to be cute, and he wants cute kids so he made them that way."

Biz: "Can I put water in the gun?"
Dad: "No, you do not put water in the gun."
Biz: *gets toy and shoots Savvy with dart gun*
Savvy: "Wow. That actually hurt"
Biz: That's 'cause it's a real gun"

Biz: "Did God make our eyes by getting marbles and painting them?"

Biz: (explaining to us her conversation with Lacy our cat) "'So here's the deal. I'm looking for Buttercup. Have you seen her?' And she was like 'No. Have fun looking for her' and I was like 'Ok. Have fun licking your paw.'"

Biz: "I need to eat lots of candy so I can be sweet."

Also, I had a couple people that asked commented, but I still have room for some more if anyone wants to enter some questions for my Q&A post. I may answer it in a video....but that's only if I get enough interest XD

Monday, May 15, 2017

This Chapter has Ended

I'm done. High school is over. Sitting in my room, where my lil sis is quietly playing with her toys and my books, it's strange to think today was my last day of high school. I didn't have a normal childhood. I didn't have a normal social life in school. Do I wish I had the normal American upbringing? No. I have loved every memory and adventure my parents have given me. They've taught me so much, and have given me wisdom to prepare me for the future. They protected me, and shown me how to have discernment. I'm so thankful that I didn't have to worry about the social drama that is in school; that I have experienced so much in my young life. I had no clue what would happen after I finished school, but God has guided me, and I now have an idea on what will happen. This only the beginning. The next chapter has yet to be written, and I can't wait.

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Giveaway Winners!

Thank you all who entered my giveaway. I was glad there were so many entries, compared to just one. :) And now for the winners..... *drumroll*

Faith Potts

Anika Joy

Congratulations! I sent you both an email, so be sure to check your inbox.

 A lot of you requested posts of my current work-in-progress (Changeling), life-related (college), or a post of my bookshelves. So I will be working to have those as my next posts, or a little bit down the road.

(and don't forget I'm still collecting questions for a Q&A in my last post!)